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29 March, 2008 . 12:56 AM
relief i guess i feel more relieved now... i was reluctant to accept it the past few days but now i know better. yup, we weren't cut out for each other, but i also do not wish to end it on such a sour note. so while i prep myself up... hope he manages to win her heart. hopefully by then i can still be your good friend. to: buddy,thanks mel! Labels: friends stay with you 0 comments27 March, 2008 . 3:29 AM
sweet dreams hopefully tonight mel and i will have sweet dreams instead of bug attack and a man appearing out of nowhere in the lift =) Labels: friends stay with you, very random 1 comments23 March, 2008 . 10:43 AM
plankton wannabe something that struck me during the booze and chill sessions: why can't we be like planktons... why do we perceive ourselves as extreme complex creatures when we can choose to be simple? to do or not to do... it's not a matter of can do or cannot do. instead shouldn't the question be do you want to do it? so what if you can do it... but you don't want to. and so what if you can't do it... but you want to. "Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right." --- Henry Ford did you ever stop yourself from wanting something because you think you can't, only to regret later for not trying? Labels: very random 0 comments21 March, 2008 . 7:08 PM
finding new things to try <3   CAC dance concert last night was nice. made me very tempted to pick up salsa... what i lack though is a partner. haha and it's too embarrassing to just pair up with anyone. maybe can consider other forms also... gonna keep a lookout for dancing mates next semester! then i stayed over at mel's hall last night. really miss having her as roomie... can speak in proper SINGLISH, change in the room plus on music and light at night to sleep! and and and there's little hammy to play with when things get boring. ooo and i read qi's blog there too. it touched me so much and kinda started the tap awhile... don't believe can ask mel. she was with me when i read it. muack to qiqi... bleah (is it too much to give out 3 muacks in a post? *clears throat and maintain composure) it is so true that every family has their own set of problems... 家家有本难念的经 came home to my own set today. my mummy is somewhat unstable still, but strong. as her daughter i can do it too. fighto~! Labels: blood runs thicker than water, friends stay with you 1 comments19 March, 2008 . 8:09 PM
acceptance tears don't flow without emotion. if those were really false hopes then why do your tears flow? now i comprehend the meaning behind "时过境迁" & "never say never" thanks to mel and the 6 QGZ for putting up with my nonsense these few days... jw, yh and jm gave some good advice too. honestly there are still some stray thoughts passing through my mind but i will get over them... now i just have to learn to be stronger. smile and the world smile with you. happiness does not necessarily blossom from happy things. it can be started with a smile. sorry mummy i wasn't a good daughter... i will start to try be one from now on... peggy jiejie told me this... juz keep urself busy lori'll try... i hope he'll be happier too. Labels: precious lesson to learn 1 comments . 3:09 PM
 17 March, 2008 . 9:59 PM
recent events last saturday went to watch "The Leap Years" with mel, kel and hui... overall i think the movie was nice, though i would only recommend for the hopelessly romantic. i doubt such an incident will happen in reality and the phrases they introduced are nice but i can't remember any particular one. i think it's worth the 8 bucks because it taught me that St. Nicholas is Santa Claus. ^^  now i have left "L: change the world", "step up 2", and "10,000 BC"... if only movies come in high definition free at your doorstep. hmm.... today i accidentally blurted out something not very nice. and got bitten back for it. painfully. staying in hall makes me more unable to control my tongue. regarding hall... there was a point in time last month when i was wondering why do i yearn to stay hall so much. i listed out several reasons too... it's only now when i'm staying here then did it dawn on me. the real reason has been so glaringly obvious all along... i guess i was too busy trying to ignore it to notice it. and i just uploaded the ntuco concert picture with mel from my phone! (though somewhat unsuccessful)  Labels: love is you, music entertainment bugg, precious lesson to learn, very random 0 comments13 March, 2008 . 4:00 PM
pictures!!!   today's cindy's mummy's birthday!!! (i used 3 " 's " -_-") Labels: very random 2 comments10 March, 2008 . 5:51 PM
i'm not busy XINDY!!!! i remb ur birthday nw le!!!! it's 26th april!!! so sorry i didnt remb juz nw!!! i read before some where... a mother avoids using "i'm busy" with her kids, because it conveys the message that she has time for better things than with them which will hurt them. the next time her kids will hesitate before approaching her. this i feel, is applicable to every relationship that we share with people. from my 1st 3 months jc knowledge of economics, there is always an opportunity cost incurred in every choice we make - including how we choose to spend our time. so when my sister chooses to stick to her bf everyday after work and then stay over at her bf's place, the message received is he is more important than us. and when zj chooses to hangout/play with his friends till the wee hours until he is drained and has just enough time to complete his assignments leaving no time for other things. i receive another message. however i had something on saturday and didn't have time for him too. nowadays, i refrain myself from telling anyone that "i'm busy". Labels: precious lesson to learn, very random 0 comments09 March, 2008 . 10:38 PM
cause and effect hmm got problem uploading photos from last night's NTUCO concert. nevermind. shall upload it next time. emo monster just came back to haunt me... but i shall try my best to fight it off. mummy was telling me yesterday that people tend to look only at the surface of things unknowingly. she then carried on to tell me that she do blame herself on how she had did "wrong" initially. though by the time we children were presented to this world, we only got to witness the effects of her supposed "wrong" deeds. she also mentioned to me that i should try to understand and help her reach out to The Man since she feels that it's her fault partly. but i just cannot bring myself to do it. come to think of it, it's almost 6 months since i last talked to him properly. mostly i just show attitude. i know i should respect him on the account that he is still my father but i just can't. so i just ask mummy to give that important job to my sis, but she say i got more "说服力". which i don't think is true... how can i make myself forgive him? now, too, i understand why during that period of time when i was super emo she warned me not to handle things wrongly and become like her. after all, when things go wrong, we should never forget, it takes two hands to clap. Labels: blood runs thicker than water, precious lesson to learn 0 comments08 March, 2008 . 12:27 AM
a short essay This is my favourite short essay from the book "A Piece of Mirror" by Daisaku Ikeda... Hope it can inspire anyone who happens to read it, like how it inspired me. To My Young Friends "Try to be as active as possible. Just by being young you possess a treasure more valuable than power or fame. To be young is to have hope, passion and freedom."Youth is a time of rapid change, from day to day and moment to moment. It can also be a time of confusion. You may feel as if you are standing alone in a wasteland or on a battlefield. Sometimes you may think you cannot believe in anyone, that no one loves you, or even that you have no reason to live. Grades at school or university are probably not your only worries. You may have problems at home, with money or health, with how you feel about your looks, with members of the opposite sex, or with friends. From feeling confident and upbeat one moment, you may be overwhelmed with insecurity, frustration or apathy the next. You may have fundamental questions about yourself and your identity: Who am I? What should I do with my life? It is quite natural to feel unsure about the best way to proceed. If you have not yet decided on your future course, I feel the best thing is just to concentrate your energies on what you need to do right now, and gradually your full potential will emerge. The most important thing is not to give up on yourself when you are young, giving in to negativity or cynicism. Do no compare yourself with others. Be true to who you are and try to cherish and feel content with your own irreplaceable life. Even if you are sometimes laughed at, or people let you down, keep going forward and never let yourself be defeated. Setting yourself targets is a good idea. Even if you have the tendency to only stick at something for two or three days, just keep renewing your determination. When you are studying and you think, "I can't do any more; I want to go out." you may decide to challenge yourself to keep going for another five minutes. People who can persevere even this much will achieve great things in life. Youth is the time for building your foundation in life. You cannot build a tall building without first making its foundations solid and secure. In the same way, if you neglect study or shy away from hard work while you are young, you cannot really build yourself a great future. A smooth, easy life in which everything goes your way may seem great, but you will not be able to develop your character if everything always works out according to plan. You may even become spoiled - a person who cannot think about others and who is no help when things get tough. If your parents are poor or lacking education, or they are always quarreling with each other, try not to think yourself unlucky. This is a truly human situation that will help you develop as a person. You may feel it would be better to be born into a rich or successful family. But often people who grow up in such a world act like well-behaved automatons, bound by formality, tradition and appearances, lacking in genuine warmth and spontaneity. There is no such thing as a whole life of smooth sailing. Therefore, you do yourself a favour by taking on difficult challenges, forging and strengthening yourself in your youth, while you are healthy and strong. I hope you can see all difficulties as the material that will enable you to develop a big heart and become people of depth and substance. Try to be as active as possible. Just by being young you possess a treasure more valuable than power or fame. To be young is to have hope, passion and freedom. Your whole life lies ahead of you, brimming with possibilities. Rather than a life of blank pages, it is better to live a life crammed full of memories of struggles and wonderfully varied experiences. Not to make waves, not to leave behind any history, but just to grow old and die, is a sad way to live. Do not wait! While still in your youth, you can become the main actors in the human drama unfolding around you, the shapers of history. Even if you feel powerless, that it is difficult to believe in yourself, please try not to be easily swayed by the views of others, and hold true to what you know is right. Try to believe in yourself. I hope you will develop sharp powers of perception, then lead the way in breaking through the apathy and stagnation of society around you. so many people are complacent, thinking, "Out of all these people, surely someone will do something." Such cowardly people avoid facing problems, assuming everything will somehow work out in the end. Please challenge the injustices and corruption you see around you - speak out and fight against any abuses of power and authority that you see. Confront and challenge every situation with the full force of your character. Live with honesty and integrity and produce results. Set your sights high and fight to achieve your goals with your whole being and spirit. Edward Whymper was a young nineteenth-century English mountaineer who set out to climb the 'unclimbable' - the Matterhorn in the Alps. Since ancient times it had never been scaled. At twenty-one, Whymper determined to succeed where no one had succeeded before. His first attempt failed, but he resolved not to give up, and year after year he pitted himself against the mountain. On one attempt he got within 430 metres of the summit, but he slipped and fell sixty metres and was seriously injured. Another time a rockfall forced him to descend. Seven times he was defeated, but he did not give up. On July 14, 1865, on his eighth attempt, at the age of twenty-five, he finally made it to the top. Like him, by challenging a great goal, you can break through your limitations and realise incredible growth. It all comes down to you. I hope you will not rely on others or wait for them to do something. Try to develop such a strong sense of responsibility that you can stand up to the fiercest storms, confidently proclaiming, "I'll do it. Just watch me!" Please confront reality, look it squarely in the face, and with guts, wisdom and strength, challenge everything that lies ahead of you. Labels: precious lesson to learn 0 comments04 March, 2008 . 12:48 AM
hall or no hall? hmmm... now i wonder what is the reason i want to get a hall. is it because i miss those days when i always have something to do and i'm not used to having nothing to do and no one to do something with at home anymore? or is it just because i think if i stay hall he will be able to spend more time with me? then again i don't want him to feel that he has to accompany me then in the end feel kiap between his friends and me. haha i do miss those hall days... friends always there... always something to do... maybe even if i move back hall now they have their new circle of friends and no longer have time for me. or if i look on the bright side i can get to know new friends? that is provided i get hall... (oopz... ok don't emo... tml got test better go slp le ^^) Labels: very random 0 comments03 March, 2008 . 9:35 PM
what my birthdate says about me 11月13日﹝天王星#8231;死亡﹞代表人物：琥碧·戈德柏 具有不断开拓的精神，能够打破成规，开创新局；有很好的洞察力和直觉能力，能捕捉流行趋势；好奇心重，口才佳，具说服力。 优点是聪明，领悟力强，反应快；具有丰富的创意和创新能力。 缺点是有反叛性，敏感，很容易受伤害。 the 缺点 is very zhun! maybe 优点 not so... Labels: very random 0 comments02 March, 2008 . 11:07 PM
never study again omg... someone pls slap me in the face and ask me to study. didn't study after that chapter of thermo. played viwawa for the rest of yesterday... then today went queensway shopping... totally disregarded the fact that i got tests!!!! 救命啊~！ ooooh i bought a duffel bag that i like very much... haha zj say nice also. though a bit expensive. when i bring home to show off this is what happened: jiejie guessed it's around 50+ only... sads. mummy say if i sling the bag looks like for guys one... even more sads. though she say if i just carry it without the sling it's nice la.... make me feel better. then keeming also say is unisex ask me lend him... make me feel even better!!! hohohoho and i made zj take photo with me... shy to post it up though. haha relax it's not photo like those edison chen likes to take. tomorrow school starts again lo. get to see QGZ again... but my guess is dydy will pon school. haha crossing my fingers and hoping i get hall... Labels: blood runs thicker than water, love is you 0 comments01 March, 2008 . 4:59 PM
play but still got study in the end the supposed QGZ whole day outing on thursday was reduced to dinner and post dinner activities. and not the whole (wo)manpower turned up. huiqi and pam couldn't make it... some of my favorite photos of the night: .jpg)    and the ultimate favorite plus best picture of the night (with everyone's faces smiling happily...) .jpg) then because ad-hoc hall application open and i want to apply but i forgot my pin, so i decided to go back school to reset pin on friday... only to run into waituck who says it can be done with a phonecall. -_-" then i studied alone at the benches near LT3, or (according to dydy) where pam sleeps. not bad... 2 hrs i finished 1 chapter of thermo... (which reminds me i forgot to print the last 2 chapter de notes...) after which i gave up. passed jw the butter cookies then i meet dumbo go gai gai (= find tesia at mama's place) le. oh yar... still got mummy's bdae cake photo haven post... but have to wait for sister's camera... Labels: blood runs thicker than water, friends stay with you 0 comments |